Thoughts on procrastination

I mastered a new skill today – making procrastination into a good thing! I spent 4 hours this afternoon watching the doctors try to peel a woman’s ovary off all the scar tissue in her stomach…it was horribly boring. I didn’t even get to scrub in, so I spent the whole afternoon sitting on a stool watching. I thought I was going to die. But I was afraid to ask to leave…and so I procrastinated….thinking of polite ways to say – look buddy, you don’t need me, let me leave so that I can walk around and get some feeling back in my legs!!! And then it happened…the doctor noticed me sitting there and suddenly felt badly for keeping me there! He complimented the fact that I’d stuck it out and told me to go home. It was like procrastination masquerading as patience and it worked! And we all no I am not a patient person, so the skill of making look procrastination look like patience is a real bonus!

To be honest, medicine and cooking are about the only two things in the world that I do have patience for. I don’t have any patience in traffic. I almost have seizures when cashiers are slow. And we all know I have NO patience for men or relationships. That’s more of a dive in then run away type situation…staying only long enough to become slightly more jaded and a little more heartbroken :P

But as I was driving home today, thinking about procrastination, it struck me – am I procrastinating with my life? It’s one thing to put off everyday tasks, but am I actually neglecting and ignoring my life as a whole? Am I missing out on how my life was meant to be because I’m procrastinating?!

This is certainly not the first time I’ve wondered whether I was behind in life. I consistently see women my age or younger having babies. And last week at the clinic this really sweet little old Italian lady tore a strip off me because I’m not married. I can’t remember everything she said…but the main theme was I should have found a nice man and settled down FIRST and worried about school LATER. It seems like all around me everyone’s good news these days has to do with their significant other. And my good news falls to the bottom of the pile, or gets completely forgotten – seemingly because it doesn’t involve a spouse, a boyfriend, a child, or a house! Am I falling behind in life because I’m single? I would like to think that it’s because the right guy hasn’t come along….but what if it’s actually my fault?! What if I have procrastinated away my life?!?!!

*PANIC*

No. Wait. No panic. This is ridiculous. What ever happened to women being rewarded for pursuing a career and a life of their own before settling down? I refuse to be guilted into feeling badly. As far as I’m concerned, my procrastination is saving you money! Everyone should be thanking me and congratulating me for never having any events that involve parties and gifts! *harrumph* Watch out world - if you don’t stop annoying me about men and marriage I’m going to have a ‘Happy Singlehood’ shower and register at Tiffany’s! (I hear they have a silver bubble blower…what could be more perfect?!)

Lots of love
Pamela

Currently watching: Friends – these people aren’t married either!
Currently eating: yellow beans out of a can