Ok I really did have every intention of blogging more after the last post....but....well....the thing I wanted most to blog about I just wasn't ready to share yet.
I've switched sides of the medical desk, and gone from being the practitioner to the patient. Why? Because we have a little bean on the way :) But let me tell you - switching sides of the desk is not easy.
Firstly - all the medical knowledge I have is completely useless. I know lots of things about how this baby is forming, and what symptoms are "normal" - but try telling that to my body! It refuses to follow textbook descriptions and will not respond to simple home remedies for alleviating symptoms. If one more person suggests maybe I should try eating some crackers, I'm going to have an aneurysm. Plus, doctors are used to being in control, and this is a situation where I have absolutely zero control over what is going on.
But its amazing how I've grown attached to my little bean through the last month of nausea and vomiting. There is no overt sign that its in there, but I know it is. I knew it right from the start. Something just felt....different....and I don't think I"ll ever be able to put words to it. But I'm going to try! So please forgive this change in direction for the blog - but for the next 7 months I'm going to be writing about what its like on THIS side of the desk. The joys, the surprises, the downfalls and generally the learning experience of figuring out how to grow a baby.
And I'll try to minimize the gory details of the puking :)
Love
Pamela
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