Hello all!
Sorry for the hiatus in blogs. Sometimes I run out of things to say, and sometimes I have so many things to say that I can't choose. And sometimes (like this time) I've been gone from medicine and education for so long that I feel like publishing under "MEDucation" doesn't fit anymore.
But here I am! Happy to say that I am studying for the American Board Exams, and hoping to start work next month. No I do not have my government authorization yet, but I'm still hoping.
Today I went to church for the first time in Graham....but sadly I feel blah. It was a lovely church, beautiful bright abstract stained glass windows that I could just stare at for hours. Lovely people. Nice well spoken Minister. But something was missing. I'm not sure how to describe it or put my finger on it, but it just wasn't my church. I miss my church in Hamilton. It fit me to a T and its hard to find something that comes close elsewhere. Call me crazy but I just don't feel renewed, re-energized, or excited by the same old - stand up, sit down, pray here, recite this. I'm happy for the people that enjoy that, but its not me.
Don't get me wrong - "I love the Lord" (as they say here in Texas, with the most amazing southern drawl). But I just don't think it makes me a better person that I followed a routine this morning.
I guess, at the heart of it, most churches don't fit my learning style. McMaster, and Medicine, have taught me to question things! Don't follow blindly. Don't do something just because everyone else does, or because that is the way it has always been done - search to find the origins, the truth, the evidence, the outcomes, and then make your decision. I think because I am an inquisitive person who always wants to know "why" - I'm not satisfied with the answer - "because".
I long for the days of a good coffee, some great worship music, and then a sermon that reads more like a University lecture. Present something from the bible, tell me about its context at the time, the history, the language it was written in, then show me how it might apply today and let me use my brain to understand it!
Ok, I just figured it out - I miss using my brain! That is where my discontent is stemming from! Well, now that I've had my ah-ha moment - I better go do something about this.
Love
Pamela
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